Currently Listening Songs For A New World (1996 Original New York Cast) By Jason Robert Brown see related

soooo.........

secrets suck... they really do- i hate them- and im keeping one..... so dont ask about it- just know that i HATE keeping secrets... boo

oh so listen..... i miss bg waaaaaaayyy too much... its bad when i feel more at home there then i do in my own hometown.... craziness right?

i have gotten to see some people at home that i ADORE and i missed them sooooo much- but i also miss my family at bg sooooo much too

not gonna lie- i dont know what to write- that explains the randomness..... i hate work, i miss people, i wish certain people would come to their senses, and i need to move on with my life in the career regard.... im ready to get out in the real world and try my luck- in fact... im almost completely set on auditioning for american idol next season just to see if i have any luck at all..... who knows- maybe ill be the next people magazine hottest most eligible bachelor.... ew- or not

world.... here i come

matt

Currently Listening Falling into You By Celine Dion all by myself see related

wow- what a school year.....

as i come to the close of my freshman year here at bgsu i kinda find myself saying- wow, where did the time go... and i find myself feeling as tho i have evolved into my true self and i am astounded when i look at myself now in comparison to what i used to be..... so much has changed

this however is not a bad thing in any way- in fact, it is probably the most fulfilling thing that i have ever experienced- for the first time in my life, i am accepting the reality of who i am.... im being honest, loyal, and my true colors are being shown on the outside instead of being bottled up inside like they always were- its perfect

i hope everyone had an amazing school year- it seems like so long ago when i was in high school doing everything i did..... i must say i kinda miss it in a way- but then again i dont- college is amazing beyond anything and i feel so comfortable here

as i said, i have evolved into who i am- this did not come easily- as you all know, i went through nothing short of hell this year and i was criticized, mocked, laughed at, accused, condemned, and i have lost friends i never thought i would- however, i have made so many more that can truly love me for who i am- i guess i just hope that this summer while im home, the mocking and discrimination i was shown earlier will subside and my friends will realize that im happy and i am who i am.......

ill be home soon- hopefully ill say i want to come home next year instead of hiding from it after this summer... which im sure will have its moments of helplessness

cya soon

matt

here's my predicament....

i like this guy- only one problem... hes straight...

damn

haha- what to do........

ITS OPENING NIGHT!!!!  AHHHH!!!!

it totally crazy- tonight is the opening night of bgsu's production of "how to succeed in business without really trying"- which im in!!! :)

im so syked to be on stage tonight and for the rest of this weekend and next- totally pumped :)

so anyway- things are amazing- i have made the friends that will never fade.... im thinking of making musical theater my life possibly as i cant get enough of it and the people are nothing short of amazing- you want to find people that dont give a hoot about your lifestyle- go into theater.... its open-minded and it accepting beyond belief- so why not? totally perfect times right now..... love it :) :)

matt